As mentioned in my last post I am supervising a student teacher.
It's not uncommon for beginning teachers to get student teachers. Today a colleague of mine was reproaching 'the man', of sorts, for letting second year outs get student teachers, but it does tend to come down to who will accept extra jobs/responsibilities in schools, and generally they are the young, eager and enthusiastic. Beginning teachers. So far it has not been much extra work, and has been very positive for the students' learning because they have a teacher who actually has the time and energy to plan excellent lessons.
She had her first lesson on Wednesday and it was terrific - very calm and confident, and the kids like her. Now that I don't feel nervous for her I am starting to notice some weird insecurities within myself and wonder if it stems from some kind of natural competitiveness that comes out when we meet people who are similar to ourselves, and of like ability, or if it is more teacher specific? I also wonder if what I am feeling is a particularly 'new teacher' kind of insecurity?
I know that I wrote copious notes throughout my observation times, practically shadowed my supervisors, and made sure that I saw as many other teachers as possible. I think I observed about 50 teachers over my Dip. Ed. year. While not everything that I wrote down about these other teachers was complimentary, I felt like a (critically thinking) sponge, collecting tidbits of information, management strategies, good ideas, etc.
My student doesn't seem to do this with me. She comes a couple of minutes late when she comes to watch me teach, does other work, and is all but silent as I ramble on after the lesson. Where are her questions? Where is the awe and wonderment?
I'm clearly craving feedback. I'm probably also worried that she might not think I'm a very good teacher. Just like all those teachers whose lessons I evaluated in my little notebook, am I forming the example of the sort of teacher she will try hard not to be like?
Maybe my colleague is right: it's not fair for beginning teachers to get student teachers. Not because they are not good enough teachers, but because they can't handle the scrutiny and and the competition.
Or maybe they are just sooky la las who are suffering mid-Third-Term-itis and need some warm fuzzies.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
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